Samaria M. Colbert
Today I wish to speak about a subject that is near to my heart. I know something about this topic. I have had to deal with and overcome this all my life and that is fear. If there is anyone who is actually reading my post you will note that a while back I wrote how I asked God what was holding back my prophetic destiny from being manifested. He replied to me, “She has many fears”. I wrote in my previous post that it was as if He was telling someone else, “She has many fears” and I was observing this conversation. It’s been a while since I heard God speak that message it must have been well over a year and a half ago I cannot exactly remember when. As time has went on I keep thinking about what God showed me. It often intrigues me. Who was God telling I had many fears? and Why was He telling this individual that? He could have easily said, “Samaria, you have many fears, but again He was telling someone else about me and that I had many fears. But that is neither here nor there but I do however wish to talk about fear.
Since I wrote that initial post. I have lost over 100 pounds, published three books, completed coursework towards my PhD. I have become a fully licensed therapist. So life is a moving along. Honestly, not as quick as I would like, although I must admit writing that made me think not as slow as I perceived either. A lot has changed since then. I have and continue to evolve and become. I have grown tremendously in leaps and bounds. I have heard God in ways I hadn’t before. I have experienced some highs and lows. I have and continue to be transformed. Although I don’t believe that I have arrived at my prophetic promise. I must say it has been a journey, the good, bad and the ugly. I am miles away from where I was and life is progressing. That is one thing I can say I have grown. I hope to never get to a place where I think I know it all. In two years I want to know more than I know this year and in a year I want to know more than that and so on. I am a learner. I don’t need to be seen, I am the one content to sit at the feet of a great man or woman of God and learn. You don’t have to prophesy over me, you don’t even have to know my name but just teach. Honestly I don’t even need a hoop or a holla if someone can sit and articulate the word of God with some revelations knowledge I am satisfied. In fact I think in churches today we get to caught up on the style of the preacher than the actual word. What difference does it make if you can holla with an organist and a drummer if when you speak your not saying anything? Don’t get me wrong I love the word of God regardless of the package it comes in, but don’t get so caught up on the style that you miss God. To me preaching with no substance is the same as not saying anything at all. So I am not trying to be anything that I am not. I am not pressed for a position or a title but I do want God’s will to be manifested in my life. I want to be used by God for His glory, not my own.
So how does this relate to fear? Well like I said earlier it was fear that led to my delay. It was fear that held me back over these years. It was all fear. Since I have transformed in many ways I simply wish to talk about my journey overcoming fear and why it is so important that you don’t allow fear to have a foothold in your life. Take it from someone who has been there, done that and got the T-shirt. Fear is not of God and yes it will cost you. Whatever you do from someone who has been there, don’t let fear stop you. Do whatever you can, stay in church, read your bible, pray every morning, cry out to God. BUT DON’T LET FEAR STOP YOU. GET DELIVERED!!! I use to say I don’t have any regrets in my life but truthfully if there is one regret that I have and wish I could turn back the hands of time that is how I let fear stop me. All the years I wasted. But no more, I have been delivered it’s been a process and I keep evolving but I will NEVER let fear EVER stop me again!
So who am I?
I am a young woman from a small town in Maryland. I have been raised in church all my life. I got saved when I was 8 years old. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was initially raised in really small churches. It was but a couple of us in service. I remember my mom getting me and my older sister up for church every Sunday. We would ride here there and everywhere in our pastor's car to places where she would preach or to churches nationally' convention. When we had youth service it was me and my older sister. So of course when they had alter call, there were so few people who weren’t saved and we knew who. I am sure that my pastor had the spiritual gift of revelation knowledge but trust me she didn’t have to use it for those services. All she had to do was by process of elimination know who was and was not saved. Me and my older sister were the youngest and had never made our confession of faith so we were of course the ones not saved. It is funny when I think about it now. I honestly don’t regret growing up in those small churches even though I have been apart of small churches to thousand member churches its all the same to me. I learned how to press after God. I learned reverence for God. I learned to wait on Him. I learned the difference between emotionalism and the real Holy Spirit. We didn’t have any musicians or organs. We had one tambourine one. I jokingly say that is why I have no rhythm even though I am black. (Seriously folks it a joke) But I learned a lot about God in those small churches. It still amazes to me today how in church we give God an hour and 15 minutes to deliver folks from 15 years’ worth of demons and wonder why we can’t get delivered. Just because people are crying and shouting doesn’t mean they are getting delivered. Some of them are getting into their emotions or are getting touched. Getting touched and delivered are two very different things. So I learned to press after God. I learned to seek Him. I can still have church all by myself to this day. I don’t need anybody to get in His presence. I don’t need a worship CD, no one behind me saying, “Come on, worship”. I can be alone and just start singing a worship song or think about Jesus and tears are running down my cheek. His presence is with me right where I am.
So the night I got saved it was on a Friday night, we were having youth services and then there was alter call. Youth service again consisted of my cousin, my older sister and me. We all went up to the make shift alter for salvation. We again didn’t have any music, no organist, no worship CD. I don’t remember who was praying with me but I remember them telling us to raise our hands and just say, “Jesus”. So over and over again I said, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus”. Over and over. Then they told us to say, Hallelujah because it was the highest praise. So I lifted my hands and repeat Hallelujah over and over again, “hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah.” Over and over again with my hands lifted and my eyes closed. I just kept saying it, all of the sudden something burst and tears started coming down my cheeks. Now the hallelujahs were real and the thank Jesus. His presence was all over me. All I kept thinking was hallelujah and thank Jesus on into the night. Eventually service ended, I didn’t want to leave but we did and that started my journey with Jesus. I got saved that night when I was 8 years old. I was not sort of saved or kind of saved. I was sho nuff saved. I knew something was different from that time. I didn’t know what I would have to go through for giving God a yes, but I never regret that night at the age of 8 years of age how God changed my life.
Ironically just because you get saved that does not mean you are immune to life or its attacks. I was saved but I still had to learn who I was in Christ, I don’t believe that once you are saved you are automatically filled with the Holy Spirit. Yes, I do have scriptures to back it up. No I will not be getting into any theological debates with anyone. If you believe differently then God Bless you. The bible does say that the evidence of the Holy Spirit is speaking in tongues. Acts 2:3,4. So I encourage you whatever you believe to seek the evidence of the Holy Spirit which is speaking in tongues. So after I received Salvation I began to seek God for the Holy Spirit and shortly after that I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit.
But as said just because you are Christian that does not make you immune to the attacks of the enemy. In fact after you get saved often times you become a greater target for the enemy. He does not want you to walk into your divine assignment. He does not want you to fully understand who you are in Christ and the power that you have over the enemy. The devil knows that when you know who you are you will reap havoc on his kingdom. You will have him and all his demons on the run. So of course I know this now, but had no clue then.
After my conversion I still had some great moments with the father. Growing up, traveling here and there going to church etc etc. I was saved but I experienced life 101. The things I experienced in my life beginning from my early childhood created a big stronghold in my life called fear. Things like abuse, rejection, bullies etc.
So as I grew up going to church Sunday after Sunday. Attending our yearly conventions, youth meeting, camp meeting, revivals you name it. I was the quiet super spiritual little girl in the front row with her hand lifted, tears rolling down her face. Going through life in fear and super saved at the same time. I was told I would never make anything of my life and that I would fail. So there was always this conflict between what the bible said about me and what people said about me. Part of growing up as a mature Christian is letting go of mans opinions about you and embracing God’s opinions about you. None the less it is still hard to listen to a God that you cannot see with your physical eyes when you see someone physically telling you opposite of what God says. Part of growing up in Christ is learning to hear the voice of God and learning who you really are in God.
The is point although I was saved, sanctified and fill with the Holy Spirit. I had many fears. I was afraid of just about everything. I was seriously intimidated and afraid of people. I was afraid to go outside of my house. I would have bad dreams that only reinforced my fears. One fear, led to another. I would cry myself to sleep at night, eat and eat all because of my fears. I was afraid I would die. I was afraid I would fail. I was afraid of being a teenage unwed mother. You name it I was afraid of everything and I literally mean everything.
In the church I was originally raised in we weren’t really taught about deliverance ministry or anything really spiritual. Otherwise I would have known about the demonic world and demonic spirits. Trust me when I tell you now I know and I have a bone to pick with the devil. He is going to seriously regret ever messing with me because now I know who I am and the authority God has invested in me. I have every intention of going into the devil's camp, wrecking havoc on the devil and everything in hell. I am not afraid of him or his demons. I have every intention of making sure that others around me get delivered from any and all demonic attacks. I have every intention of having the devil on the run and I am going to be running right after him. I am not waiting on him to attack me, I am going to attack him. EVERY INTENTION!!!!
But point is fear is a demonic spirit from hell. I wish to talk about fear since I know so much about it. My hope is that after you read this post you make up in your mind not to let fear take root, but do everything in your power to get free. Fear is not of God.
As stated fear is not your imagination. It is not the boogeyman. It is a demonic spirit from the demonic world.
When fear takes root it grows and grows and grows. So you start off with a little fear, and it goes unchecked. Eventually it is like a cancer, if it is left in your system long enough it will grow and begin to effect the entire body. Like cancer it has got to be treated or it will not only continue to grow but also become fatal. In fact when you have time Google the word cancer. Find any article about the effects of cancer and as you begin to read the article everywhere you see the word cancer replace it with the word fear. You will get a very similar definition, growth and information about fear that you would cancer. Now how many people want cancer spreading throughout their body unchecked and untreated? So why would you want fear there unchecked and untreated?
Fear can and will affect your entire life. When I look back over my life? I can honestly say the fear that I carried with me impacted my entire life. It led me to build up walls, not reach out to people, not venture out. Fear led me to not speak confidently. When I look back over all the things I missed out in my life it was all because of fear.
Fear stops your growth.
Fear impacts how you perceive yourself and others. Fear will have you saying you can’t when God has already given you the ability. Fear prevents the fullness of God from being manifested in your life.
Fear affects relationships. Fear prevents you from trusting people. Everyone is not out to get you. There are some trust worthy people in the world but fear keeps you away from those good people. No one is an island unto themselves we do need people. It is just a matter of using discernment as to who is for you and who is against you. Fear prevents that level of discernment.
Fear will have you thinking everyone is after you and against you. God will send just good kind hearted people to you but you won’t see it all because of fear.
Fear will keep you looking over your shoulder when there is no one there.
Fear is a spirit that keeps you bound, depressed and deformed. Meaning your walking around with a spiritual injury that does not belong there. It impacts how you move because you have something blocking your view of what God has for you.
Fear is false evidence appearing real. Fear is like a mirage, from a distance it looks real but the closer you get on it you realize it is all in your head and not really there. Unfortunately people will make life altering decisions based upon temporary circumstances and rooted in fear. Think about it. Ever have a friend who settled for a man who had not been God ordained for her life because she feared being alone? Or put up with some bad situation out of fear?
Fear will keep you bound by other people’s opinions of you. Remember the spies of Israel who were afraid after seeing giants in the promise land.
Fear will keep you from moving forward.
Fear will keep you from taking a leap of faith.
Fear will have you crying yourself to sleep at night. Having trouble sleeping, eating to much or to little. Fear will increase and turn into anxiety and panic attacks.
Fear is a spirit that keeps you in torment.
Fear will keep you from your prophetic promise. If God keeps telling you yes you can but in your own spirit you keep thinking no I can’t He can’t do what He promised you.
I could go on but I think you get the point. Fear is not worth it. As stated when I look back over my life I have this sense of deep mourning. I can’t help but well up with tears over the years I wasted with my unwanted constant companion fear. I think of the life I could have had. Where would I have been if I hadn’t allowed fear to have a foothold in my life? I would have not gained so much weight because I ate to my fears. Maybe I would have been married by now. Maybe I would have been in ministry by now all because of fear. I would be much further along only if I hadn’t had so many fears.
When we think about regrets we often think about time we could never get back. You know the famous song. I coulda, I shoulda, I woulda song. Most people think we can’t ever get the years we lost back. However the Lord spoke this word to me at the beginning of the year and that word was this.
Joel 2:23-27 (NKJV)
23. Be glad then, you children of Zion, and rejoice in the Lord your God; For He has given you the former rain faithfully, And He will cause the rain to come down for you-The former rain, And the latter rain in the first month.
24. The threshing floors shall be full of wheat, And the vats shall overflow with new wine and oil.
25. “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, The crawling locust, The consuming locust And the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you,
26. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord you God, Who has dealt wondrously with you, And my people will never be put to shame,
27. Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel; I am the Lord your God and there is no other, My people shall never be put to shame.
Ephesians 5:16 (NKJV)
16. Redeeming the time, because the days are evil.
So you see God says that He will restore everything that you lost. It literally means to buy back the time that the enemy has stolen. I once read how God can restore in 10 minutes what you lost in 10 years. In an instant He can do all things. Honestly I believe that if your heart is pure towards the things of God even with your stronghold He will restore and redeem. Even though I always had that stronghold my heart has always been for God. I always believed in true holiness and righteousness. I just didn’t know who I was in Christ, therefore not having the authority to possess what He promised. Again that is what the process is for to transform you and to let you know who you really are in God. As stated before there are some deliverances that happen over night but there are some that happen over time and in process. Knowing who you are and the power you possess is one of those deliverances that happen over the process. When you know who you are you won’t put up with foolishness from the devil or other people. You begin to walk in your God given authority as a kingdom citizen. You began to speak and project confidence. The anointing flows through your confidence.
When fear is gone you begin to possess your possessions. So what does that mean? It simply means you begin to take hold of what already belongs to you. Think of the children of Israel there great great great grandfather owned the promise land. He had already been given the promise by God. The children of Israel were already descendants of Abraham, therefore they were the heirs of his land. Think about it if your fathers passes and leaves you his house it belongs to you. This is how it was with Abraham. He owed the land the people of Israel were already owners being the direct descendants of Abraham. God was not giving the people of Israel another promised land He was simply taking them back to their grandfather Abrahams land. They were the rightful owners. The problems was they left their land unoccupied so long that giants were living on their land. The nerve of the giants. Again it’s like that same house that your father left you. You live in a different city and other people come take their possessions and move into your home. They decorated it real nice, put their own furniture in your house. HELLO YOU STILL OWN THE HOUSE! GET IT! YOU OWN THE HOUSE! So the people had to deal with giants living in land that was rightfully theirs. The giants put up their false gods in the homes and high places of people who belong to the living God. There names were on the deed.
So when you let go of fear you take possession of what already belongs to you. Remember in the beginning of time God gave those that belong to Him the whole world. Genesis 1:27-31. So when you make your confession of faith, you take ownership of the whole world it belongs to you.
Joshua 1:3 (NKJV)
3. “Every placed that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given you……
God’s supernatural response for dealing with fear:
The truth is everyone has dealt with fear. God has a supernatural answer for fear. We won’t go there but if you look at every great person in the bible every one of them at some point and time had to deal with fear from Moses, to Joshua, to the prophets everyone see my previous post entitled The prophet. Getting rid of fear was something they all had to deal with before they could manifest their prophetic promise. God would always say don’t fear and He would tell multiple times at that. After God commissioned Jeremiah, touched his lips and then revealed to Jeremiah his divine assignment he said this to Jeremiah:
Jeremiah 1:17-19 (NKJV)
17. “Therefore prepare yourself and arise, And speak to them all that I command you. Do not be dismayed before their faces. Lest I dismay you before them.
18. For behold, I have made you this day, A fortified city and an iron pillar, And bronze walls against the whole land-
Against the kings Judah, Against its princes, Against its priest, And against the people of the land,
19. They will fight against you, But they shall not prevail against you, For I am with you, “ says the Lord, “to deliver you.”
What I like about God is that after he tells Jeremiah to not be afraid He says to Jeremiah I have made a fortified (strong) city. I made you so strong I made you like a strong city of iron and bronze. Your so strong your against (stronger than) kings, princes and priest. He says they are going to try you but they won’t win because I (God) am with you.
That is God’s supernatural response to you. Yes there are giants in the land. You are going to have to put up a fight but I have made you stronger than all of them. So overcoming fear does not mean never having a battle or never having to fight it means you are stronger than all your enemies and that you will win no matter how big they are.
Fight past the fear. Because God has delivered us from fear it doesn’t mean you will never have to deal with fear. Scriptures says we ought to fear God. That is not to say we are to be afraid of God, but we are to reverence Him or to hold Him at high esteem.
Being delivered from fear does not mean we will never have to be confronted by fear. With every new plateau, with every new territory there is some fear involved but fear does not have to dictate or control our lives.
As God has said to Joshua be bold, be courageous. Pray for boldness:
Acts 4:29-31 (NKJV)
29. “Now, Lord, look on their threats, and grant Your servants that with all boldness they make speak your word,
30. “by stretching out Your hand to heal, and that signs and wonders may be done through the name of Your holy Servant Jesus.”
31. And when they had prayed, the place where they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness.
So from one person in process to another let us go forth in the spirit of boldness and be fear-less.
Dear Lord Jesus
First we come before you acknowledging that you are the king of kings and the Lord of Lords. You see and are concerned about everything that pertains to us. We are your people. We first ask for your forgiveness for allowing fear to take residence in our lives. We acknowledge that it was fear that has led to our delay. So please forgive us for our part in bolstering and nestling in our fears. We renounce the spirit of fear and every tormenting spirit that comes with fear. i.e. the spirit of intimidation, inferiority, low self-esteem. And now we declare and decree that the spirit of fear is broken. Now father we release the spirit of boldness to come into us now. And it is so! Now father do to us like you said you would do in your word, restore. Restore everything that the spirit of fear took, stole and snatched from us. We now boldly decree that we take possession of our possessions. Everything that belongs to us let it manifest now! We believe your word and it is so.
It is in the name of Jesus that we pray. Amen!
We declare we are free from fear and are moving forward!
I have been delivered from the spirit of fear. I don't know if I will never be confronted with fear again. Life happens, there is new territory, to ambitions, new business ventures in pursue. But I quarantee this if I am ever confronted with the spirit fear I will fight past the fear and won't let it stop me. Fear will not abort my divine destiny or prevent me from moving forward. So let us go together being Fear-less.
Samaria M. Colbert © 2011
P.S. I highly recommend the book: So Long Insecurity, You've been a bad friend to us. By: Beth Moore