10.13.2013

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 Today is another milestone in my life, my birthday. I am reflecting upon my life and where God has brought me from. God is faithful. My life has not been easy. I have gone through the process. I am truly grateful for the struggles and obstacles I have overcome in my life. It has been hard, and the road has been rough, but sitting here thinking about life, the journey, the struggle and the triumph I now know there was a purpose behind my pain. So I decided to write about the things I am most grateful for and what I have learned along the way.

1. When I was 8 years old, I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior. You will be able to tell by number 2 that being a Christian didn’t excuse me from pain, suffering or life but if it had not been for the Lord who was on my side, I wouldn’t have made it. It was by His divine power in my life that I am here today. God has taken me much further than I ever thought. He has placed dreams, ability and anointing in me that I never knew I had. I am not bragging but it was the grace of God that has allowed me to break generational curses, overcome every obstacle, accomplish every goal and has positioned me for greatness. Who wouldn’t serve a God like that?

 

1. I am grateful to finally be free. Many of you may or may not know that from my early childhood, I suffered with severe depression, and anxiety. It was so bad that when I was a teenager I contemplated ending it all. Of course I didn’t go through with it or I wouldn’t be writing this post. Today I am grateful because I no longer suffer with depression, anxiety or suicidal thoughts. Oh the faithfulness of God.

 

 

1. I have learned that life is a journey not a destination. I have always been so full of ambitious. I would always say that I would be happy if, you know the rest. I would be happy if, I only had a college degree, if only I’d lose weight, if I had a nice car etc. I have learned that you can spend so much time on the whens that you forget to enjoy the moment. I have learned to enjoy life and be in the moment. Besides I have many of the things on my wish list and none of them brought me any closer to happiness. Happiness is a decision not a destination.

 

1. I love me.  I could care less about the people who don’t get me, that is their problem not mine. I no longer compare myself to other people, enough said. No one can beat me being me. I love my personality. I love my quiet spirit. I love that I can listen, I mean really discern what is and what is not of God. I learned that I am not just a listener but I can be heard.

 

 

1. I am grateful for my family.

 

1. I am grateful to be a writer. Writing, writing, writing. What can I say? Who would I be if I couldn’t write? Today my obsession with writing is even stronger, to the point where I work 8 sometimes 9 hours a day. I go home hit the gym, then I write till 1 or 2am in the morning. I don’t care who doesn’t believe in my dream. I will be a New York Times bestselling author. How do I know this? Because my God told me to write. If I follow His plan, it is His responsibility to bring it to pass.

 

1. I have learned that if you walk in wisdom it will never stir you wrong.

 

1. I am grateful to be healthy. Food was my crutch, it was my love, my stronghold and my addiction. I never thought I be free, ever. However I went from a size 28-30w to a healthy size 14w-16w. Mind you I am not the size I want to be, but I am not what I use to be. I learned that health is a lifestyle. I also learned that God would break every addiction off of my life. So yes it has been hard and it is a process, but I can proudly say I am not addicted to food. It does not control me I control it. I am still on my journey and I will keep at it, goal is right around the corner.

 

1. I am grateful for my friends. I have never been one who has many friends, but the one’s I have I am grateful for. I tell my client’s sometimes it is better to have a few friends that love you and value you than a whole lot of friends who are just there.

 

1. Most of all I end this blog with the same as number 1. I am grateful, so grateful for my relationship with God. He calms my fears, wipes my tears. God has spoken to me in times and places that I never thought, He would or should have. He called me a winner when I was on the losing side. God told me I was beautiful before I ever knew it. It is because of Him that I love me because I found my voice in Him. It was His faithfulness towards me that has transformed me in every way, shape and form. If it had not been for Him I would be dead and in hell somewhere. I honestly don’t know where I would be if it had not been for the grace of God. He is my everything. I still fall in love with my God more and more each day. Years ago I never thought I’d see this day, my mind couldn’t contemplate me being here, but look at God.

 

 

From this woman who is finally happy, whole, free, single and blessed.  Today I am grateful. True success can’t happen absent from God’s grace, His love and our participation. I love today because I am loved. Thank You Jesus, I am free.

 

Samaria M Colbert © 2013