A prophet 10.16. 2009

 
 This article is hard for me to write because it is here where I most really expose myself. I must be vulnerable in a way that I do not wish to be. Recently I had been praying and seeking the face of God about his destiny and purpose for my life. I already know it, but I most confess that sometimes it feels as though the process is taking much to long. God first began to speak to me a little over 10 years ago about the purpose that he has for my life. He began to show me being a great women of God. I was ministering very powerfully under the anointing to thousands of people all over the world. Of course I originally didn't believe it. I have always been very quiet and kept for all of my life. So even though the visions were very powerful I didn't believe it. After several years of seeking God and confirmation I finally believed what God had spoken to me.
 
I have gone through many things since that time, had many ups and downs but I understood that this was all apart of the process. So honestly I was just asking God why hasn't my promise gotten here yet? It appears as if nothing is happening in the area of my ministry. I am a woman who loves God, I live in holiness. I am by no means perfect, but I truly love the Lord with all of my heart. I have had to give up everything for the cost of being obedient to his will and way. I have had to experience much rejection and have learned to be alone to be able to hear his voice. So at this point I am like God okay, what is going on here.
 
 
 
Again after I pray, I feel the presence of God, I know that God has heard me and I drift off to sleep. Again God speaks to me in a vision, as he often speaks to me in visions and dreams. He says "She has many fears". In the vision it was as if God was telling someone else she has many fears. Have you ever been in a good counseling session or had a "ah ah" moment? Well this was one of those moments. I remember something deep from the pit of my heart knowing that this is true. Isn't it amazing how God will reveal things to you about yourself that you know, but don't know? I thought I was over my fears. God will reveal those things that are so hidden they are even hidden from our own selves, but not from others around us.
 
I know God was telling me that it was my own fears that has held me back. I began to think of the root of my fears, where they came from. I thought back to my early childhood. I grew up in church, but I have survived being abused, hurt, and being broken. I experienced people who were supposed to be close to me telling me I would never amount to anything. I have experienced rejection from my own family, my school mates, church mates and from people that you would think should love you the most. No matter where I have been I have never been accepted. I am not bitter and have forgiven but I simply wish to tell my story. I use to think that there was something wrong with me because no matter what I did I could not seem to be accepted.
 
 
 
 
Eventually as I started cultivating my relationship with Christ he began to tell me who I was and the purpose he had for me. As said early although I initially didn't believe it do to those fears I came to accept that I was the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath and this was God. I have since grown into a strong, confident women so it was to my shock and aw that God would tell me that my fears are what's holding me back after I thought I was done with them.
 
Since God told me about myself, this is hard but I most confess. It has been fear that has led to my delay. It was fear of being hurt that has kept me from establishing relationships. It is hard to trust someone you don't know, when the people that are supposed to love you the most reject you. It was fear that led me to build up walls from me and the outside world. It was the fear of failure that has led me to not fully believe in myself. It was fear that contributed to my own low self esteem and self worth. It was fear that made me not speak, knowing I have a voice and that voice has something to say. It was fear that has led to me to build up defenses. It was fear that has kept me in a defeated position instead of a position of power. It was fear that contributed to my defense mechanisms. It was fear that kept me in my comfort zone. It was fear that kept me in the back of the line, knowing I was supposed to be up front. It was fear of rejection even though rejection is what I know that has kept me bound. It was fear, it was all fear. FEAR, FEAR, FEAR, FFFFFEEEAAAARRRRR.
 
 
That's it I said it, I have spent most of if not all of my life afraid!
 
So when God spoke to me I knew it was him. I knew
 
The good news is when God reveals to you something about yourself, he intends to bring it to the surface in order to remove whatever it is. I understood there was a purpose for my rejection, which is why I can't be angry, or mad at anyone.
Mark 6:4 (NKJV)
4. But Jesus said to them, "A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house".
John 1: 10, 11 (NKJV)
10. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.
11. He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him.
Isaiah 53: 3 (NKJV)
3. He is despised and rejected by men. A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him.
Luke 17: 25 (NKJV)
25. But first He must suffer many things and be rejected by this generation.
Acts 7: 35 "This Moses who they rejected"..
 
So no my or your rejection was and is not in my mind. It was real. Jesus went through significant rejection while here on earth.
 
The good news is my prayer since God revealed this to me was "Lord I know that what I had to go through was for your glory. However it was when I didn't know the purpose of my rejection that fear was given precedent in my heart and mind. I know longer want fear to hold me back, so if you please remove it."
 
I looked up some scriptures that I could find regarding weakness and fear.
 
I Corinthians 2: 3 (NKJV)
 
3. I was with you in weakness, in fear and much trembling.
 
Even Paul this great man of God said "I first started out being afraid". He went on to be what I believe to be the most prolific and profound writer, speaker, apostle, scholar that ever lived.
Jeremiah 1: 7 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
6. Then said I: "Ah, Lord GOD! Behold I cannot speak"
 
 
Jeremiah ended up being a great prophet, who spoke very powerfully the words of God. He spoke so powerfully we are still talking about him today. First he was afraid, and told God his weaknesses, one being he thought he could not speak.
 
Exodus 2: 14 (NKJV)
 
14. "..So Moses feared"..
 
Moses became so afraid, that he ran off to the wildness. In Exodus 4:10-12 Moses admits to God after having the burning bush experience that he had a speech problem. It commonly believed that Moses had a stuttering problem, which he openly admitted to God. Moses was so afraid that God had to send his brother Aaron to go with him. However, Acts 22 reports that Moses was mightily in words. He ended up not needing his brother to speak for him after all, even though his brother did assist him in other ways. Moses ended being the greatest leader that ever lived, but he started off being afraid.
 
 
 
 
I Corinthians 8: 15
 
15. For you did not receive the spirit of fear...
 
 
One of my professors once told us, that it is not where you start that matters. The point is our weakness are not his. So I realized that God had given me an anointing and he had every intention to use me. He would rid me of fear. So I prayed that fear and doubt would be removed and Holy boldness would be replaced by it. If he did it for those in the bible he could do it for you and I. Fear is a spirit that most be rebuked. So I prayed. Every since then I started seeing victory. I feel the bounds of the spirit of fear being broken off of my life. I am starting to see myself in boldness, in a way that I have never. I see myself the head and not the tale. I see myself reaching my purpose very soon. I just feel victory. So I am writing this article in victory not defeat. It is in not in any way meant to be another sad story to make you cry. It is a new day. I am thinking differently and have a can do attitude. PRAY pray that the spirit of fear and bitterness be broken off of your life. I could care less about whether I am accepted or not. What difference does it really make? I am a true witness it is not worth it. Forgive; people only do what they know, sometimes what they know is simply not enough. So just let it go. I am moving forward and so are you. If this article has touched you in a special way repeat this pray with me.
Prayer:
 
I asked for your forgiveness of letting fear, unbelief and doubt dictate and delay my life. I realize that when I allow fear to guide me it is only a sign that I really don't trust you, nor do I believe the words that you spoken over my life. I am sorry Lord for calling you a liar in my heart. Forgive me. I renounce the spirit of fear. I forgive the people that have hurt me. Now Holy Spirit let the spirit of boldness come into me now. I thank you for it.
 
Amen
Acts 4: 31 (NKJV)
31. And when they had prayed, the place were they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness.
Samaria M. Colbert © 2009

 This article is hard for me to write because it is here where I most really expose myself. I must be vulnerable in a way that I do not wish to be. Recently I had been praying and seeking the face of God about his destiny and purpose for my life. I already know it, but I most confess that sometimes it feels as though the process is taking much to long. God first began to speak to me a little over 10 years ago about the purpose that he has for my life. He began to show me being a great women of God. I was ministering very powerfully under the anointing to thousands of people all over the world. Of course I originally didn't believe it. I have always been very quiet and kept for all of my life. So even though the visions were very powerful I didn't believe it. After several years of seeking God and confirmation I finally believed what God had spoken to me.
 
 
 
I have gone through many things since that time, had many ups and downs but I understood that this was all apart of the process. So honestly I was just asking God why hasn't my promise gotten here yet? It appears as if nothing is happening in the area of my ministry. I am a woman who loves God, I live in holiness. I am by no means perfect, but I truly love the Lord with all of my heart. I have had to give up everything for the cost of being obedient to his will and way. I have had to experience much rejection and have learned to be alone to be able to hear his voice. So at this point I am like God okay, what is going on here.
 
 
 
Again after I pray, I feel the presence of God, I know that God has heard me and I drift off to sleep. Again God speaks to me in a vision, as he often speaks to me in visions and dreams. He says "She has many fears". In the vision it was as if God was telling someone else she has many fears. Have you ever been in a good counseling session or had a "ah ah" moment? Well this was one of those moments. I remember something deep from the pit of my heart knowing that this is true. Isn't it amazing how God will reveal things to you about yourself that you know, but don't know? I thought I was over my fears. God will reveal those things that are so hidden they are even hidden from our own selves, but not from others around us.
 
 
 
I know God was telling me that it was my own fears that has held me back. I began to think of the root of my fears, where they came from. I thought back to my early childhood. I grew up in church, but I have survived being abused, hurt, and being broken. I experienced people who were supposed to be close to me telling me I would never amount to anything. I have experienced rejection from my own family, my school mates, church mates and from people that you would think should love you the most. No matter where I have been I have never been accepted. I am not bitter and have forgiven but I simply wish to tell my story. I use to think that there was something wrong with me because no matter what I did I could not seem to be accepted.
 
 
 
Eventually as I started cultivating my relationship with Christ he began to tell me who I was and the purpose he had for me. As said early although I initially didn't believe it do to those fears I came to accept that I was the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath and this was God. I have since grown into a strong, confident women so it was to my shock and aw that God would tell me that my fears are what's holding me back after I thought I was done with them.
 
 
 
Since God told me about myself, this is hard but I most confess. It has been fear that has led to my delay. It was fear of being hurt that has kept me from establishing relationships. It is hard to trust someone you don't know, when the people that are supposed to love you the most reject you. It was fear that led me to build up walls from me and the outside world. It was the fear of failure that has led me to not fully believe in myself. It was fear that contributed to my own low self esteem and self worth. It was fear that made me not speak, knowing I have a voice and that voice has something to say. It was fear that has led to me to build up defenses. It was fear that has kept me in a defeated position instead of a position of power. It was fear that contributed to my defense mechanisms. It was fear that kept me in my comfort zone. It was fear that kept me in the back of the line, knowing I was supposed to be up front. It was fear of rejection even though rejection is what I know that has kept me bound. It was fear, it was all fear. FEAR, FEAR, FEAR, FFFFFEEEAAAARRRRR.
 
 
 
 
That's it I said it, I have spent most of if not all of my life afraid!
 
 
 
So when God spoke to me I knew it was him. I knew
 
 
 
The good news is when God reveals to you something about yourself, he intends to bring it to the surface in order to remove whatever it is. I understood there was a purpose for my rejection, which is why I can't be angry, or mad at anyone.
 
 
 
Mark 6:4 (NKJV)
 
 
 
4. But Jesus said to them, "A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house".
 
 
 
John 1: 10, 11 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
10. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.
 
 
 
11. He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him.
 
 
 
Isaiah 53: 3 (NKJV)
 
 
 
3. He is despised and rejected by men. A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him.
 
 
 
 
Luke 17: 25 (NKJV)
 
 
 
25. But first He must suffer many things and be rejected by this generation.
 
 
 
Acts 7: 35 "This Moses who they rejected"..
 
 
 
So no my or your rejection was and is not in my mind. It was real. Jesus went through significant rejection while here on earth.

 
 
 
 
The good news is my prayer since God revealed this to me was "Lord I know that what I had to go through was for your glory. However it was when I didn't know the purpose of my rejection that fear was given precedent in my heart and mind. I know longer want fear to hold me back, so if you please remove it."
 
 
 
I looked up some scriptures that I could find regarding weakness and fear.
 
 
 
I Corinthians 2: 3 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
3. I was with you in weakness, in fear and much trembling.
 
 
 
Even Paul this great man of God said "I first started out being afraid". He went on to be what I believe to be the most prolific and profound writer, speaker, apostle, scholar that ever lived.
 
 
 
 
Jeremiah 1: 7 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
 
6. Then said I: "Ah, Lord GOD! Behold I cannot speak"
 
 
 
 
Jeremiah ended up being a great prophet, who spoke very powerfully the words of God. He spoke so powerfully we are still talking about him today. First he was afraid, and told God his weaknesses, one being he thought he could not speak.
 
 
 
 
Exodus 2: 14 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
14. "..So Moses feared"..
 
 
 
 
Moses became so afraid, that he ran off to the wildness. In Exodus 4:10-12 Moses admits to God after having the burning bush experience that he had a speech problem. It commonly believed that Moses had a stuttering problem, which he openly admitted to God. Moses was so afraid that God had to send his brother Aaron to go with him. However, Acts 22 reports that Moses was mightily in words. He ended up not needing his brother to speak for him after all, even though his brother did assist him in other ways. Moses ended being the greatest leader that ever lived, but he started off being afraid.
 
 
 
 
I Corinthians 8: 15
 
 
 
 
15. For you did not receive the spirit of fear...
 
 
 
 
One of my professors once told us, that it is not where you start that matters. The point is our weakness are not his. So I realized that God had given me an anointing and he had every intention to use me. He would rid me of fear. So I prayed that fear and doubt would be removed and Holy boldness would be replaced by it. If he did it for those in the bible he could do it for you and I. Fear is a spirit that most be rebuked. So I prayed. Every since then I started seeing victory. I feel the bounds of the spirit of fear being broken off of my life. I am starting to see myself in boldness, in a way that I have never. I see myself the head and not the tale. I see myself reaching my purpose very soon. I just feel victory. So I am writing this article in victory not defeat. It is in not in any way meant to be another sad story to make you cry. It is a new day. I am thinking differently and have a can do attitude. PRAY pray that the spirit of fear and bitterness be broken off of your life. I could care less about whether I am accepted or not. What difference does it really make? I am a true witness it is not worth it. Forgive; people only do what they know, sometimes what they know is simply not enough. So just let it go. I am moving forward and so are you. If this article has touched you in a special way repeat this pray with me.
 
 
 
 
Prayer:



I asked for your forgiveness of letting fear, unbelief and doubt dictate and delay my life. I realize that when I allow fear to guide me it is only a sign that I really don't trust you, nor do I believe the words that you spoken over my life. I am sorry Lord for calling you a liar in my heart. Forgive me. I renounce the spirit of fear. I forgive the people that have hurt me. Now Holy Spirit let the spirit of boldness come into me now. I thank you for it.




Amen
 
 
 
 
Acts 4: 31 (NKJV)
 
 
31. And when they had prayed, the place were they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness.
 
 
 
 
God Bless, I Love You
 
 
 
Samaria M. Colbert © 2009
 This article is hard for me to write because it is here where I most really expose myself. I must be vulnerable in a way that I do not wish to be. Recently I had been praying and seeking the face of God about his destiny and purpose for my life. I already know it, but I most confess that sometimes it feels as though the process is taking much to long. God first began to speak to me a little over 10 years ago about the purpose that he has for my life. He began to show me being a great women of God. I was ministering very powerfully under the anointing to thousands of people all over the world. Of course I originally didn't believe it. I have always been very quiet and kept for all of my life. So even though the visions were very powerful I didn't believe it. After several years of seeking God and confirmation I finally believed what God had spoken to me.
 
 
 
I have gone through many things since that time, had many ups and downs but I understood that this was all apart of the process. So honestly I was just asking God why hasn't my promise gotten here yet? It appears as if nothing is happening in the area of my ministry. I am a woman who loves God, I live in holiness. I am by no means perfect, but I truly love the Lord with all of my heart. I have had to give up everything for the cost of being obedient to his will and way. I have had to experience much rejection and have learned to be alone to be able to hear his voice. So at this point I am like God okay, what is going on here.
 
 
 
Again after I pray, I feel the presence of God, I know that God has heard me and I drift off to sleep. Again God speaks to me in a vision, as he often speaks to me in visions and dreams. He says "She has many fears". In the vision it was as if God was telling someone else she has many fears. Have you ever been in a good counseling session or had a "ah ah" moment? Well this was one of those moments. I remember something deep from the pit of my heart knowing that this is true. Isn't it amazing how God will reveal things to you about yourself that you know, but don't know? I thought I was over my fears. God will reveal those things that are so hidden they are even hidden from our own selves, but not from others around us.
 
 
 
I know God was telling me that it was my own fears that has held me back. I began to think of the root of my fears, where they came from. I thought back to my early childhood. I grew up in church, but I have survived being abused, hurt, and being broken. I experienced people who were supposed to be close to me telling me I would never amount to anything. I have experienced rejection from my own family, my school mates, church mates and from people that you would think should love you the most. No matter where I have been I have never been accepted. I am not bitter and have forgiven but I simply wish to tell my story. I use to think that there was something wrong with me because no matter what I did I could not seem to be accepted.
 
 
 
Eventually as I started cultivating my relationship with Christ he began to tell me who I was and the purpose he had for me. As said early although I initially didn't believe it do to those fears I came to accept that I was the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath and this was God. I have since grown into a strong, confident women so it was to my shock and aw that God would tell me that my fears are what's holding me back after I thought I was done with them.
 
 
 
Since God told me about myself, this is hard but I most confess. It has been fear that has led to my delay. It was fear of being hurt that has kept me from establishing relationships. It is hard to trust someone you don't know, when the people that are supposed to love you the most reject you. It was fear that led me to build up walls from me and the outside world. It was the fear of failure that has led me to not fully believe in myself. It was fear that contributed to my own low self esteem and self worth. It was fear that made me not speak, knowing I have a voice and that voice has something to say. It was fear that has led to me to build up defenses. It was fear that has kept me in a defeated position instead of a position of power. It was fear that contributed to my defense mechanisms. It was fear that kept me in my comfort zone. It was fear that kept me in the back of the line, knowing I was supposed to be up front. It was fear of rejection even though rejection is what I know that has kept me bound. It was fear, it was all fear. FEAR, FEAR, FEAR, FFFFFEEEAAAARRRRR.
 
 
 
 
That's it I said it, I have spent most of if not all of my life afraid!
 
 
 
So when God spoke to me I knew it was him. I knew
 
 
 
The good news is when God reveals to you something about yourself, he intends to bring it to the surface in order to remove whatever it is. I understood there was a purpose for my rejection, which is why I can't be angry, or mad at anyone.
 
 
 
Mark 6:4 (NKJV)
 
 
 
4. But Jesus said to them, "A prophet is not without honor except in his own country, among his own relatives, and in his own house".
 
 
 
John 1: 10, 11 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
10. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.
 
 
 
11. He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him.
 
 
 
Isaiah 53: 3 (NKJV)
 
 
 
3. He is despised and rejected by men. A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him.
 
 
 
 
Luke 17: 25 (NKJV)
 
 
 
25. But first He must suffer many things and be rejected by this generation.
 
 
 
Acts 7: 35 "This Moses who they rejected"..
 
 
 
So no my or your rejection was and is not in my mind. It was real. Jesus went through significant rejection while here on earth.

 
 
 
 
The good news is my prayer since God revealed this to me was "Lord I know that what I had to go through was for your glory. However it was when I didn't know the purpose of my rejection that fear was given precedent in my heart and mind. I know longer want fear to hold me back, so if you please remove it."
 
 
 
I looked up some scriptures that I could find regarding weakness and fear.
 
 
 
I Corinthians 2: 3 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
3. I was with you in weakness, in fear and much trembling.
 
 
 
Even Paul this great man of God said "I first started out being afraid". He went on to be what I believe to be the most prolific and profound writer, speaker, apostle, scholar that ever lived.
 
 
 
 
Jeremiah 1: 7 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
 
6. Then said I: "Ah, Lord GOD! Behold I cannot speak"
 
 
 
 
Jeremiah ended up being a great prophet, who spoke very powerfully the words of God. He spoke so powerfully we are still talking about him today. First he was afraid, and told God his weaknesses, one being he thought he could not speak.
 
 
 
 
Exodus 2: 14 (NKJV)
 
 
 
 
14. "..So Moses feared"..
 
 
 
 
Moses became so afraid, that he ran off to the wildness. In Exodus 4:10-12 Moses admits to God after having the burning bush experience that he had a speech problem. It commonly believed that Moses had a stuttering problem, which he openly admitted to God. Moses was so afraid that God had to send his brother Aaron to go with him. However, Acts 22 reports that Moses was mightily in words. He ended up not needing his brother to speak for him after all, even though his brother did assist him in other ways. Moses ended being the greatest leader that ever lived, but he started off being afraid.
 
 
 
 
I Corinthians 8: 15
 
 
 
 
15. For you did not receive the spirit of fear...
 
 
 
 
One of my professors once told us, that it is not where you start that matters. The point is our weakness are not his. So I realized that God had given me an anointing and he had every intention to use me. He would rid me of fear. So I prayed that fear and doubt would be removed and Holy boldness would be replaced by it. If he did it for those in the bible he could do it for you and I. Fear is a spirit that most be rebuked. So I prayed. Every since then I started seeing victory. I feel the bounds of the spirit of fear being broken off of my life. I am starting to see myself in boldness, in a way that I have never. I see myself the head and not the tale. I see myself reaching my purpose very soon. I just feel victory. So I am writing this article in victory not defeat. It is in not in any way meant to be another sad story to make you cry. It is a new day. I am thinking differently and have a can do attitude. PRAY pray that the spirit of fear and bitterness be broken off of your life. I could care less about whether I am accepted or not. What difference does it really make? I am a true witness it is not worth it. Forgive; people only do what they know, sometimes what they know is simply not enough. So just let it go. I am moving forward and so are you. If this article has touched you in a special way repeat this pray with me.
 
 
 
 
Prayer:



I asked for your forgiveness of letting fear, unbelief and doubt dictate and delay my life. I realize that when I allow fear to guide me it is only a sign that I really don't trust you, nor do I believe the words that you spoken over my life. I am sorry Lord for calling you a liar in my heart. Forgive me. I renounce the spirit of fear. I forgive the people that have hurt me. Now Holy Spirit let the spirit of boldness come into me now. I thank you for it.




Amen
 
 
 
 
Acts 4: 31 (NKJV)
 
 
31. And when they had prayed, the place were they were assembled together was shaken; and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit, and they spoke the word of God with boldness.
 
 
 
 
God Bless, I Love You
 
 
 
Samaria M. Colbert © 2009